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Saturday, December 19, 2009


I just have to post this from tumblr.
Her. face. is. epic.
It's my Itouch wallpaper, rofl



Hi all, just back from KL, sorry I've not been replying texts!
Was a sorta impromptu trip carpooling with another cell-grp family.
(And I think I might just like to get some tracks from Queen hahah cause the uncle's a fan and he played the entire cd like twice on the road trip back.)
What can you say about KL actually, nothing really though the toilets are much more cleaner heh.
Just a lot a lot of shopping & a lot of eating :\ (gonna detox and run run run these next days)
Intended t do our hair there but no time & costs were around th same, so didn't.
Was actually looking for some decent ladies flats but ended up chancing upon this awesome looking pair of Nike dunks. + slippers which I've been eying in SG shops and they're both cheaperr (: They both have red in them hehheh awesomee

Watched Avatar there too, and its really (Y)!
You guys realllly gotta watch it.
Initially I wasn't even stoked about it when I saw the trailers and y'know that the director is James Cameron who did Titanic and I thought it was just some typical sci-fi flick which of course I realised to be wrong.
It wasn't typical, in fact, I think its a pretty cool story. Apparently there's a different cartoon version of it or smth idk.
It's even better than 2012, please watch it please watch it pleaseeeee you wouldn't regret it.
I freaking teared (I know), and I was thinking if this has got to be one of the best action movies I've watched. The cast are all familiar faces and I liked the character of Trudy (played by Michell Rodriguez I googled) hahaha who wouldn't. She's the tough-girl with the devil-may-care attitude, hawt. I give this movie 4.6 out of 5!

AND AND AND AND.
Weehow, did you join th contests in the 1000th issue of 8 days!!
(Oh and btw sis went to help get th $30 worth of goodie bags @ Iluma last Sun hahaha yay)
I WON ROFL I WON!
A pair of tix to catch the gala premiere of Sherlock Holmes this Monday! :D
Jude Law & Rachel McAdams, here I comeeeeee
Its my 1st time joining and I won how awesomeeee hahahaha.
Sis joined the Avatar one but it seems like they haven't texted her back awww.

So well, I am pretty packed th whole week as well!
Christmas is just next week! This Friday isit! Ahha.
Blessed Christmas everyone! Oh and Happy Belated Birthday Sis! (:
I like Christmas, compared to CNY that is.
Do you think I should make new year resolutions? I mean I've never everrr did.
I could, but I dislike the idea of failing to achieve them.
Like I'm deceiving myself and I hate to promise things that I know I can't commit to.
2009 was... shall reserve this for another post hahahahah, the new year post.
2010 shall be phenomenal I know. Go U or not sigh :\ haha.
We shall see then, we shall see.

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1:26:00 PM

Sunday, December 13, 2009

And I am aware of my heart: it opens and closes
Its bowl of red blooms out of sheer love for me.



Sylvia Plath, Tulips

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11:58:00 PM

Friday, December 11, 2009




1. Shall be waiting till Jan... Ms.S says they're deciding b/w an art and a geog tchr.
"Can you teach Art?" -.- Rofl, catching 2 birds in 1 stone if I could right.
And if I don't get it, then barista definitely.
I've waited long enough.

2. AND, lately I've been reading this same Wilde Book and I am proud to say I am 3/4 to the end.
It's got 5 of his works in this 1 book, and so far I've read till about the end of the 4th work.

De Profundis has impressed upon me quite a bit and it has brought to my attention the disappearance of handwritten letters, love letters at that.
It's like that quote from The History Boys.
From the depths; I wish I could share with you what De Profundis meant to me.

3. I think I've an impromptu trip to KL sometime next week hahah nice.

4. Tday I popped by my neighbourhood's dvd rental shop while getting lunch... but didn't get anything, yet.
The staff were so enthusiastic, promoting their 'FREE' membership for those who lived around the area, and all in mandarin. I hemmed and hawed like an idiot.
I shall return soon with a list of all the english dvds I want to rent hehheh.
And then a mischievous thought just came into my mind... :}

5. Found an awesome site, awesome work - A Softer World

6. SEA games taking place nowwwwwww I like! (: I only really become a couch potato when large games like these are broadcasted hahahahah.
And how they all give me adrenaline rush, likeeeee how I want to sign up for a half-marathon soon. (Cause I'm afraid I'll die if I attempt the full marathon on my maiden run haha)

7. Happy Eighteenth Yixin (:

8. I'm liking New Moon's OST a lot (Y). Awesome songs awesome songs.
I'm a satellite heart/lost in the dark
I'm spun out so far/ you stop, I start

AND finally I got hold of this particular song (thanks to BGF) (Next song in mixpod!)
Y'know those songs which you've heard but never had them in your possession. I really like the lyrics of this one, esp how 'sucker' becomes an affectionate term here hmmhm.
It's always been the lyrics all along anyway.

Every You Every Me By Placebo

Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion's spent.
My hearts a tart, your body's rent.
My body's broken, yours is bent.

Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...

Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There's never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.
It's only comfort, calling late.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...

Every me and every you,
Every Me...

Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.
There's nothing here but what here's mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...

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4:05:00 PM

Friday, December 4, 2009



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1st December, Tuesday.

Went over the causeway and caught 2012 & New Moon.
And they finally opened the new customs so going to th mall now is way convenient (Y)
Do you know how freaken cheap are th tickets!
They'd morning specials, so it was RM$6/tix. (Apply Exchange Rate concept here)
The normal one was RM$11. Awesomee!
2012 was great (Y), stunning CG, was pure action till the end. Th movie really makes one want to live without regrets... Just Carpe Diem and all that stuff.
Why, until you step outta the theatre and realise its human to not have the guts to. :\

New Moon on the other hand, was grating much.
Sulastri told me this was exactly what the 2nd book IS about - the love triangle.
I liked Kristen's acting really, but it was too lovey dovey, too romantic in an unrealistic way. Pooey.
Most of the time Edward was mumbling and I couldn't hear what he was saying at all ):
But anyway anyway,
Ashley Greene is so hawt ( her hair) and so is Edward's father, Carlisle.
Carlisle oh Carlisle, th character is so suave in the movie that even his name is delicious.
It rolls of your tongue and it sounds like french or italian or smth cool (but obviously i dont really know the difference). The 'Volturi' too, say it say it!
But in real life, he doesnt look that charming without his combed-back blonde do and pale skin heh.
OH and during the movie there was this scene I liked v much.
When Bella just sits there lost after breaking up w Edward and the months pass by.
+ the song (Y) HAHAHA I remb saying to myself that I had to search for it.
It's on my mixpod NOW, Lykke Li - Possibility. Hyukhyuk.
And there's this other song which was the better one of the lot, Bon Iver & St. Vincent - Roslyn.
Afterwhich, ate Sushi King as usual. Everyone must eat Jap Food when y'all in M'sia!
(L) the exchange rate hahahahaha everything's so cheap!


2nd December, Wednesday.

Met up with BGF & Sulastri separately but we all did see each other (:
Thankyou for naked fish xz!
And thankyou for th lil surprise shaba! Very sweet.
And yes, another balloon this year, but I like!
Its an elmo one finally hahahahha! (L)





3rd December, Thursday.




Watched ^ with Gabriel.
And I returned him his brother's King Lear heh thankyou!
Hah, yes, movies are quite enjoyable when you're so free.
I wouldn't watch this if not for the fact that I'd watched New Moon really.
Gross in the beginning bec. we had just eaten and had to face spilling bloodied innards
and insane meat-lusting cannibals right from the starting credits.
It was all blood and more blood.
HAHAAHAH but I got used to it pretty soon.
Besides Emma Stone gradually became quite appealing as the story progressed.
Mildly memorable show, just pure entertainment.
2 stars out of 5. Watch it if you don't like New Moon cause there aren't other movies really.
Yeah and I saw PJ peeps alrdy working in town!
Why so fast! It makes me feel like I'm missing out on smth hahahah.
I'm planning to indulge in sloth till Jan people, I'm still recovering from A's fatigue!

OH and I didn't know that New Moon's theme track was from DCFC till G told me!
'Meet me on the Equinox', so apt title eh hahahah.
Feels awesome to blog.
And after 3 days of getting out, I'm pretty happy I'm slacking tday.
Munching on a bagel spread with nutella, along with ice cold coffee, heavenly isn't it? (:
(But i'm pretty sure I'll be complaining really soon since bread's my staple)


See you people soon!
Christmas is coming soon, I like it.
I like my time now, relaxing and rejuvenating.
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord (:

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5:32:00 PM

Monday, November 30, 2009




Today is the 10th day since emancipation and I shall continue indulging in sloth :D
Well, last week's been kinda packed cause I kinda did anything and everything without
having to pay heed to time constraints. Like before A's, everything I did had to be calculated
and prioritised, so sick. Like if I spent today going out, I've to make it up another day yadah yadah yadah y'know.
So that evening right after econs, I went to town w mother.
Then the day after I went town again with sis, and yet another day after the next day,
I went Suntec etc hahahahahh.
Awesomeeeee yes? To the point I was physically tired of going out haha.
So I took some pretty shots of Orchard Central, its interior design is pretty rad.
But th shops there suck awfully. Its like a glamourised Bugis Street.
Hmm you'll get what I mean when you shop there.
But its got a wide variety of eating places (Y)


Awesomeee




Oh and OC's sky garden is kewl.
Can't help but taunt my sis bec. she was trembling up there can you imagine hyukhyuk.
Please take the freaken escalator from i think level 5 all the way up!
So kewl hahahahah cheap thrill.



Awesomeee view of the sunset (Y)

Which also explains why this peekchure sis took was blur :\



Anyway was @ Suntec cause Singtel had this mobile fair.
But alas, nothing caught my eye.
I'm still torn between getting an iphone or a normal phone bec. my sister says
its a fad and ultimately a practical phone's better.
And besides theres the $$$$ issues/woes haha.
Oh and there was this interesting anime fair there too and zomg pls look at this:



So this dude stood somewhere near the escalator, apparently waiting for someone,
and everyone just started whipping out their cams to shoot him.
How could I not do the same hahahah.
His costume was by far the nicest, unique hehheh and poor kid.
He had to be escorted by guards because they were afraid his wings would damage their ceiling/lights or smth. Plus, it was a torture for him to walk - Crab style. Rofl.
I really wonder how he got to suntec in the first place.

Well, cosplayers are exhibitionists I swear. (Aren't we all a little?)
They just camped at an area at Suntec and just pose. and pose. and pose.
Eh wait, but thats the whole purpose of cosplaying aint it hmm.
OH AND ZOMFreakingGosh.
We saw this promoter wearing a playboy bunny costume wth.
She was giving out fliers and everyone was just gawking at her.
Either
a) Cheekopeks who stare lasciviously (and pose for photographs w her and have their hands almost smothering her frame)
b) Mortified rest-of-us-sane-people

I belong to the latter obviously ewwwww.
She was almost completely butt-naked, like 4/5 of her butt cheeks were exposed under the guise of freaken net stockings. Can you imagine the front ewwww.
She was basically wearing very little with her whole bare back showing.
What made me puke more was when she was in front of me, I saw that she'd faint blue green contusions on her butt cheek sheesh. Ahhhhhhhhh flaws.
Eeeeeeeeeeeee gross woman gross and she's not pretty.
She must need the money, that's sad.
Well :\


Let's see.
So I've spent my days packing my table and the studyroom, I really dk how to clear all the notes.
I wna recycle, where!
Played sims 3 hahahahha, I adore the making sims and building house parts the most.
And I'm reading, im reading yes really im reading!
And just on saturday night, I did a few exercises of my O lvl vocab book prize.
How awesomeeee. I ♥ doing vocab exercises!




Heh heh, another movie to hunt down.
Stephen Fry, the only actor who should possibly be close enough t portray Wilde.
And reviews said he acted really well but the movie sucked cause it was a film undeserving of Wilde's genius and eccentricity. Pooey film.
And there is also Jude Law, Jude Law! ♥
I can already picture him as Lord Alfred Douglas, the young, charming and unfortunate
bane of Wilde's reputation, Wilde's whole life.
And there is also the first on screen appearance by Orlando Bloom (Y) as one of Bosie's rent boy hah, how charming!


3 cheers for end of exams tmr china studies people! (:
JB this week and perhaps leaving th country too yay!
I'm feeling like a wanderlust, I suppose many would, given such free time.
I want to explore and rove about, even if its like in SG, museums or anything hahahha.
(Y) Till next time.


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4:08:00 PM

Monday, November 23, 2009



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Out of Danger

Heart be kind and sign the release
as the trees their loss approve.
Learn as leaves must learn to fall
out of danger, out of love.

What belongs to frost and thaw
Sullen winter will not farm.
what belongs to wind and rain
is out of danger from the storm.

Jealous passion, cruel need
betray the heart they feed upon.
But what belongs to earth and death
Is out of danger from the sun.

I was cruel, i was wrong
Hard to say and hard to know.
you do not belong to me.
you are out of danger now-

Out of danger from the wind,
Out of danger from the wave
Out of danger from the heart
Falling, falling out of Love

-James Fenton

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1:49:00 AM

Thursday, November 19, 2009



HAHAHAH LIKE JUST A FEW MORE HOURS FEW MORE HOURS,
CAN YOU FEEL MY EXCITEMENT.


I really have t save myself doing tmr's econs p1 tmr bec. p2 was kdnsghwrfomasdfkn.
Was mostly writing non-economic stuff for 1 of my essays and handed up only 2 foolscap papers for that. Okay, so say bye to maybe 25m?
Which leaves me with 50/75... Oh heck.

Just did some googling of a movie 'Closer' and hahahahahahah yay am gonna watch it, somehow.
It's so surreal, the ending of A's :D
I can't really imagine what I'll do for like what 6-8 months? MONTHS.
I can't believe I survived th torture.
Those long arduous late nights mugging my sad life away (though I kinda liked it) and the incessant number of times Rico sees me going in and out of the kitchen to make my nth cup of coffee and then downing them as if they were the panacea to my misery (oh wait they were!)
& y'know I've also been missing out on family life, in the sense...
So many things have happened at home and I've been excluded tsk!
(talk about imperfect information in econs, yeah this is it)

Oh my and did I suffer, oh how I suffered mentally, urgh awful.
Not to mention how my brain overworks when I'm in solitude.
And I mean overkill-kind-of overwork.
O tedious thoughts.
I practically thought about everything under the sun.
Goshh, the first few weeks after sch ended were the worst i tell you, almost driven insane by mere thoughts.
Most of them personal, some of them about religion, and yes the few but adrenaline-pumped ones of:

brewing coffee (don't laugh at me, its a noble job),
or if I should go take up relief teaching,
or gasp, sign up for radio academy,
learning how to rollerblade/unicycle,
continue reading De Profundis & his other collections,
purchasing The Bell Jar myself and devouring it,
watch all the fantastical shows I want t watch,
swimming/tanning! (but alas the weather),
playing sims 3 AGAIN,
packing my freaken table and deciding what to keep and throw,
and perhaps even getting my own room?,
doing up a new blogskin probably whee,
meeting up with all the people I hvnt seen for a v long while,
buying zomg so manyyyy things because time is due *smirks,
mulling over FUTURE options (like faculty, or plan B gasp),
and and and if I do get into uni, what freaken sport I wna join!
....

Yeah, there were plenty more like the random "I-am-going-to-make-friends-with-the-scb-who-loiters-around-plaza-esp-starbucks" (Oh how I would miss staring at her from inside starbucks and drawing inspiration from her, yes really) and how I thought of trying out a biathalon after reading of ultra-marathons in the papers.

Trust me, I do know its overkill!!
Sooooo anyway, Geog's officially just over, Lit's over, and Math & GP were long gone yay.
OH, and zomg, p1 unseens, 1 of the poems were awesomeeeee.
If only every paper could speak to me like that.
James Fenton's Out of Danger was so, familiar. For lack of a better word.
Simply cause they were my exact sentiments tsk.
I CAN'T BELIEVE A'S ARE GONNA BE A THING OF TH PAST.
TELL ME WHAT NOW.


P.s: 'That thing you do' just kept playing in my head while I studied idk why,
Hahhhhahaha, and wiki is a gem, just found out Fenton's gay wth
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